Breakfast.

Prepared by me for my clique! It's really the first time i prepare food for my jc friends. Well in sec sch the only one who enjoyed free breakfast almost every morning would be my darling rea. Ha. That's how sweet we are. We frequently prepare things for each other.

Well now that i come to think of this, i wonder why i did those things, or simply, why i do the things i do. Is it because i'm forced, obligated or whatsoever?

Well the fact is that i loved rea, till this day i still do of course. And i love my friends. Well perhaps it's one of the ways to thank them for being there for me at times i needed help, or for them for who they are, or simply just to do something for them. The thing is, i don have to do these. No one force me with a knife on my neck.
Inside of me i just know i want to do it.

But yet these efforts from the heart are often taken from granted by people around me. How sad right? Haha. But what can i do? Perhaps the only thing i can do is to mock at myself for being so nice?

I don do things just to please people, unlike 'some people'. That's who i am. Well i find no need to try to accommodate to everyone. If i offer help, i mean it. Hence me doing things for my friends is surely not in attempt of winning their hearts or be the apple of their eyes. If that's the case, then the friendship must be rather superficial right?

Talking about this, i was really disappointed by some incident today. It makes some friends seem rather superficial all of a sudden. I know they are not, and i believe that our friendship is not like that, but somehow, i just feel it that way. Everyone is just doing their own things. Well humans are selfish to start with already isn't it?

It's not the FIRST TIME i feel this way already. But there's nothing i can do anyway. It's difficult to handle people people kinda things la. But it's really scary, and it did frightens me a lot, when i see how friends can just walk away from me like that.

How far away they had seemed at that moment. How foreign, and what a disappointment they have become. And it dawned upon me; how deep is our friendship? and how much further can it still go?

When something expected to happen went out of hand, just be calm and be ready.